i really don't know y i even bother to start blogging..
maybe coz i'm need something to let it out before i do sumtin that i really gonna regret..
people say, we need to let it all out.. so u will feel better.. but i say it just crap...
i've been letting it out for these past few month but at the end... it still the same..
but anyway.. it wont hurt to try.. wont it..??

my life getting nowhere.. i've f**k up few of my jobs.. i can't do anytin rite.. don't know how long bos gonna stand before i'm fired...

the most important thing in a man life is career & love.. rite now, love just not there...
career..?? just hanging there.. i'm not such a bright person.. slow & lazy i think...
i dont even know how i get this job.. engineer..?? yeah rite...
i'm ashamed to even tell people my job.. i don't think i'm fit for it..
that's y i end up telling people i'm doing service jobs and so sooo..

my working enviro isn't too good. y is that..?? only 1 malay in my department..
yeah.. thats me.. on tops of that.. they mostly talk in their language.. i dont think it stated that in my resume dat i can..?? even discussing the jobs in their language.. is it my fault for not knowing their language..?? well.. maybe.. then i start puzzling.. y da hell did they take me in..?? maybe because their so on with 1 malaysia spirit.?? or maybe... maybe... because they need atleast 1 malay in comp so that can go through tender..???

well.. should u care if u were used..?? but at the same time.. the pay is good.. that is unless when u know that ur pay is only half of their pay... i'm a fool of thinking that i've found a place where i'm accepted & acknowledged.. gonna keep on searchin'..