new stoli..

one of memorable quote from rocky

 it's been a while since i last updated my blog.. it's not i'm bz, just didn't know what to write. in my head lots of lots thing i've been thinking.. life is keep on testing me.. sometime i feel that i can't even breath.. i'm suffocating each time being tested. only strength i got is from my own mind.. it keeps on saying.. get up...!!! this round hasn't finished yet..!!! pull your self together..!!!

 yeah.. u heard it before.. it's from one of sylvester stallon hits movie rocky.. but well, anything to get u focused.. rite..?? people been saying.. if there's problem, we should pray to god.. not writing nonsense in blog.. but nobody reading my blog anyway.. so why the hell not..?? hahaha...

 firstly, after been searching here & there for house to rent.. i found one near my  current house.. the rent is quite cheap comparing to other place.. and it's near my office.. but deposit for house+utilities is almost rm2K.. perghh.. koyakk... next month gonna be another painful month.. the rent started on december.. but i'm gonna move in on january..  i didn't have for this month current house rent at it's deducted from the deposit. but still 2K..?? sighh...


 new house... so new electrical appliance needed.. fridge, washing machine, bed and tv.. luckily i got stove, rice cooker and water heater for my wedding gift. huhu.. still i need to buy at least freezer.. with the deposit almost rm2k.. i don't think there's budget for one this month.. suddenly it crossed my mind.. should i apply for another credit card..?? hehe..  crazy or what..!!!  i've got debt tied for the next 4-5 years..  last thing i gonna do is to make more debt..

 secondly, as usual my work.. i just sick of being unappreciated.. no matter what i do.. always wrong.. i really hated confrontation and believe me if i do.. nothing will be the same after that.. it's will be an awkward working environment.. i've just register for safety officer course from niosh.. wish i've done it earlier.. so i can get the hell out of my office now.. i don't hate the job.. just hate the treatment.. feel like the black sheep of the family.. i'm taking part time course so the course will finish on april.. until then.. i just need to be patience and just swallow everything they've been giving me..

 the thought of giving them my resigning letter always make my smile.. oh please let everything goes smoothly.. at least until april.. i'm an angry person.. hope i can keep my temper down until then..

inner peace